12:18PM - Just another journal entry

Well Ladies and Gentlemen ... * thinks to self ... are there any guys that read this... mmmmm*

Anywho... well today is that last day of my summer as I start school tomorrow.. yea me poor me .. I was thinking back to what I did this summer and surprising enuff I did nothing I was massively lazy this year. I couldnt believe it. Oh well nothing I can do about that now is there my little free world is coming to an end.  I've been trying to get on a decent time schedule but I am such a nite person its hard for me especially after 3 months of all niters and sleeping all day .. sheesh I should have started this about a week ago maybe I would be on some kind of normal schedule .
Talked to Shae yesterday for a bit before she went out to the lake with her family. She wants me to go to NYC with her and her family this weekend for the 9-11 anniversary. Theres a part of me that wants to go just because its such a moving event but then theres that part of me thats like but I am not family and I dont want to invade but I guess since I am being invited its not really an invasion is it ? If I go we fly out on friday afternoon and I think she said we would return monday evening or something like that which means I would miss my monday afternoon class which I guess isnt to bad its just freshman comp I and its only one day. I have it on M W & F so it would be like the 3rd class and I am sure that it would be ok to miss it just once anywho.. I am sure this is majorly boring you so I will move on.

Aidan bought a cute little school kat figurine its so cute.. its a little kitty kat thats in a school girl outfit and has a little back pack and everything .. I just love it . Of course he could give me a sack of dirt and I would prolly love it .. ok maybe not but yeah .. I love him lots but right now we can only be friends .

Well anyways I am going to go and let these ramblings be posted to my LJ .. sorry things were very exciting but its been a boring lazy summer maybe my life will spicen up once I am doing something lol ! 

~Peace & the world fades to black~
     ~ The Rai One~ 

Current mood: odd but calm

Current music: MEW - She Came Home For Christmas

6:31AM - Which proud princess are you?

You are a secretive princess. You were born into a
gilded cage. You hated the rules and
restrictions about walking daintily, eating
neatly and always having to look good.
You hated the cameras always flashing in your face
and therefore you hide your true self, behind
plain clothes. But your beauty is still
stunning. Due to the way you continually hide
yourself from the life of rules, you are a
natural rebel. Independence is your strongest
point - you may care for others, and even
depend on them...but when it comes right down
to it, the only one you need is yourself. You
have a strong sense of who and what you are, no
one can control your heart or mind, or even
really influence your thinking. You have a very
serious mind - never acting immature and
harbouring a superior disgust of those who do.


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1:20AM

                                                 
                                                     Morning      

Well here I am again sitting at the damn computer in the wee hours of the morning... why I ask my self and I have no real answer to that. I just seem to be a night person.. maybe I am in training for my life as a vampire... could be but yet that is unlikely too since I dont recall ever being bit by anything that would cause such an odd effect.. thats not to say I havent been bitten ( overshare to the extreme max) but not by a vampire at least . 
Anywho....
Have you ever had something on your mind and wish you could talk about it but you just couldnt find the words or perhaps the strength to talk about it? Well unfortuntely that is where I find myself these days. I dont know if its an issue of not having the words or not having the strength to do it. All I know is that there is something there and I cant get it out . I am hoping that soon I will have the words or strength to do it and just be done with it. I am sure that in due time I will .. maybe its just not the correct time to talk about it .. maybe I deep down know that its not the time to do it and thats why I am struggling with it.. one can only guess at that I suppose ... so I will just leave it be for the time being and go about other things that I need to deal with or take care of.. 
Well.. I have decided to at least enroll in college part time this fall. I am going Monday to enroll.. I cant believe that I am going to be a college student. Its mind boggling to say the least. I am just taking some basis classes for now... my major is the same as most freshmen in college... Undecided lol ... great career options there eh?  I figure that once I get my feet wet in college and know that I am going to be able to handle it I can decide on a major... I mean I know what I want to do but actually committing myself to it is just hard since the chances are slim I will actually end up doing what I want to ...  I have a desire to be an actress to star on my fave show or in movies or something but I know that its not an easy career to get started in and all... so I am not sure I should devote my college education to acting only to be unemployed.. seems like a waste of time and money but then again if I make it WOW... can you say BLING BANG BLING BAM ... lol. Its nerve racking to say the least to sit here and think that soon I will be back in school something that I didnt plan on doing for a long time if ever... I just didnt think that college was for me not after the hellious year I had .. I did ok my senior year but school - higher education was the farther thing from my mind to say the very freaking least. I am just glad that a few of us are planning to go to the same college. Most of us are staying in town or close to it so we can at least get together once a month or so.. My friends are my family are my life .... sad eh? but true. They mean the world to me ... if not for my friends I wouldnt have survived this past year hell I wouldnt have survived the last 2 years .. I would have been either dead or so freaking out of it that I wouldnt even care about anything.. ok there are days that I am actually like that ... not caring about anything at all and saying what the fuck to the whole world but arent we all like that.. I think so .. No use in denying it !
And no on to something totally different...
Have you ever had a friend that you felt that you need to save? I have one like that and I try and try and I feel like all I do is fail her. That I never can do anything right to make her life better .. its like all the shit in the world just drops on her and I just want to hold the world up for her so she can breathe just for a sec just to see that things cant always be so bad and that they wont always be bad not like that.. that there are good things out there.. and I know that there are times that I too forget that there are good things out there especially in the last couple years but I am starting to see that there are some great things out there. Things that I am so wanting to be a part of just havent figured out how yet.. but maybe if I can save her and show her that together we can discover how to make the good things ours too .. I dont want to be broken anymore.. I want to be free .. free to fly... free to be ME

Well I guess on that note I am out for the time being .. I just think I need to play some on line games or something to chill out that was a bit more indepth than I had planned on .... I dont want to be completely drained ya know.. anywho.. Peace Love & Monkey nuts!
Cause thats the way I roll ~

Quote of the day ~ From AMC~
"Someone has to be mature and responsible and it's a really sad sorry day when that someone
has to be me." ~ Simone      

6:12AM

                         Morning

Good Morning Peeps......

I went to bed like at 1:30 am or so and got back up at like 4:30 am ... wow a whole 3 hours sleep! Go me ! LOL 
Anywho.. I am trying to decide what I am going to do today, I am thinking that I might go to the pool and go swimming .. maybe work on my non-existant tan lol . I have a bit of a tan but honestly I havent even tried to get one this year..  Wow my life is so boring LOL here I am talking about tans.  

OMG I am sitting here watching the news and I knew this world has major issues but still I cant believe some of the things that go on ..
A local couple left their 9 week old daughter in a car for about 2 hours on friday .The temp got up to like 98 degrees ... she suffered a stoke and was rushed to a local hospital. Apparently the parents thought that the other had gotten the baby out of the car when they returned home. Can you believe that.. I mean the 1st thing I would be getting out of the car would be the baby not the little replacable items that I just bought at the store.. shit .. what the fuck..  Apparently they even have like 3 or 4 other kids so its not like they are new 1st time parents that might ( and I say might lightly.. cause I just dont understand how someone can do that ) make a rookie parent mistake..  Well they just reported that the baby died yesterday ... I think they should look at pressing charges I mean shit how the fuck can you forget your baby.. you get the other kids out right ... why on earth would you leave the baby.. why would you not get the baby out first???? To many unanswered questions I guess.. I just dont understand or get it and I guess mind doesnt bend that way . 

Anything exciting happening in your edge of the world? Let me know.. I need I crave some excitement peeps Help Me Out!!!

Ok I think I am going to stop listenin to the news this early in the morning as it just pisses me off and thats no way to start your day now is it?
Well I think I am off to do some more fun and exciting quizzes as I am not tired enuff to go back to bed just yet and I am not quite thinking straight at the moment ... I am a bit more loopy in the mornings than in the rest of the day .. and thats saying something

Current mood: sleepy

Current music: sounds of the tv

10:33PM - 20 friends thing

20 Friend meme

Friend list:
1. Shae
2. Aidan
3. Suzie
4. Jess
5. Sam
6. Big J
7. Jake
8. Peo
9. Tripp
10. Madelyn
11. Mikey
12. Amanda
13. Carl
14. Sean
15. Tonio
16. Joey
17. Erin
18. Christopher
19. Zach
20. Kirsten



Is #9 a boy or a girl?:
boy

Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple?:
LOL not even close

#18 and #4?:
No he isnt her type

When was the last time you talked to #12?:
this morning at like 7ish my time on MSN

What's #6's favourite band?:
blue oyster cult

Current mood: indifferent

Current music: Elephunk -The Black EyedPeas

10:26PM - Which neighborhood in Manhattan is best for you?

Which neighborhood in Manhattan is best for you?